Undefine Feeling

Just got home and crying all over the mistakes that I’ve done... T.T

Today was a big yet grief day, It was my dream to be part of T***** Scholar.. but I just ruined it within those damn 30 minutes *sorry bad word :D*

I knew it wasn’t anyone but ME WHO SHOULD BE BLAME.

The first time when I came to the meeting room I was so nervous, I even can’t felt my feet, my feet was like a jelly that time. I answer their question with trembling voice, they even asked me to take a deeep breath first  I’m so ashamed. Oh god what wrongs with me??? I keep on asking those question inside my had, before the interviewer begin their questions again.

What I regretted the most is when they asked a question “What’s your plan within 5 year ahead after your graduation?” BANG! It’s like she threw a bom atom in front of me. Actually, I knew that there will be a kind of question like that, but I didn’t even prepare the answer for those question. I felt so dumb... For godness sake, I don’t even know what I’m going to do for my own future, it’s like she slap me to make me realize that actually I have nothing to be a guarantee for myself.

They asked me twice about the foundation, crap! And I answer it wrong...

I’ve been searching some information about those foundation actually, and had memorized some of it, but my tounge just won’t cooperate with me, and my mind was just go nowhere because I’m too nervous.

I knew it when they said those sentences... I wasn’t a part of candidate who will pass the test.

But it’s OK... I got A LOTS of hikmah today :)

Mario Teguh what’s right about “We should make our selves decent if we want to get something which we deserve for”.

Have a lots to learn for next interview :D *Wah..I’am so confident /eh* but it’s ok..my friend said that we should stay thinking positive so the universe will make it true.

END OF MY JOURNEY TODAY :)

*Sorry for the grammar error, my english wasn’t that good actually..I’m just a beginner ^^V* 

Practice make it perfect? Majayo?